YOU know... We dont...

Almost 7 months and here I am again. Just wanted to share what I feel right now.

We'll, its Wednesday and while Im on my way to office (inside the MRT North Station specifically), I have received a text from a person who usually and commonly appears on my phone. I thought it was just a 'common' text BUT I was wrong. I dont know how to feel upon reading the text. In fact, at first, I was in doubt. I even replied 'weh?'. I thought it was only a joke (hoping...). A few seconds, I came to my senses and replied again, 'ganun ka rush?'. Thoughts in my mind came rushing through; 'is it real?', 'why so rush?', 'how long?', 'she ok?', 'am i ok?', 'is this what God wants?', 'can she be ok?', 'what is she feeling now?' and many more. But I have to composed myself. I have known this possibilty or this thing to happen. But its just I was not expecting it to happen so fast. Maybe next year would be fine.

Dont know what to think of. In fact, I dont want to think about it. I want to pretend that its not happening. Different emotions/feelings is clogging my heart and mind right now. But one thing Im sure of. God cannot be mistaken. If its His will, I know that something good will come out of it. I was just so lucky that I know a God who is powerful, loving and all-knowing. In Him, I put my trust. We may be hurting now... But in the end... I know... joy will fill our hearts...

God, give us the strength we need. Help us to accept things and increase our faith in You. and in Your ways. We cannot understand or comprehend the way You think, BUT one thing we can be assure of, it is the fact that 'YOU KNOW... we dont'. Mold us. Use us.

All these I pray, In Jesus name, Amen.