To Greet or Not to Greet???

Feb 22, 2008

6:30 am - pagmulat ng mata, bible ang binasa sa higaan, sa higaan (in the tune of batibot themesong. handa, awit!. haha)

7:15 am - dun n tlga ko bumangon.. nkakatamad kc. pero i have to get up kc kun ndi late ako mkakauwi. haha. (yan ang motivation ko. ung uwian! joke lng. pero half meant, o bka nga 3/4 meant. hehe)

8:00 am (rounded off. ndi msyado sure pero mga gnyang time) - umalis ako ng bahay. Lakad (pawis/pagod), sakay tricycle (5 pesos), lakad ulit-akyat tulay para makatawid (pawis/pagod), sakay ng bus (byaheng mrt, 8 pesos ordinary), mrt north to buendia (swerte wala msyadong tao (friday kc at late n kc ko. hehe, ticket(14 pesos)), lakad ulit papuntang sakayan ng jip (pawis/pagod), jip byaheng buendia tos baba ng AXA bldg (7.50 pesos). Hay, sa wakas nkarating din....

This is the when the story begins...
9:10 am (di din sure) - andun ako sa baba ng AXA at may nkita ko n 'kakilala'. As usual aun, di ko lam panu cia babatiin knowing n may isyu n before n bka 'snobbish' dw kmi kya aun mas nkaka-tense. Di p ko nkakapag-isip bgla ng bumukas ang elevator at aun, sbay kmi ng elevator. buti nlng may mga nging ksabay kmi, pero til 24th floor lng un. Kaya from 24th floor to 27th (office bldg nmin) kmi lng ang andun sa loob... Hays... 'Panu ko cia igi-greet? panu ko cia papansinin? Panu b dpat aus ng mukha ko? nkasmile ba? o mukhang inosente? Bka kc magkaron n tlga cia ng conclusion n 'snobbish' tlga ko/kmi. Hays.. hirap tlga... Dont know how to approach that person. Mejo mukha din kc ciang msungit, pero lam ko ndi nman... iniisip ko lng un malamang... hay, ayan n 24th floor na. and know what i do? as wat virna is always sayinh, i chose to be 'quiet'. I didnt do anything...

Asar... Until now, though i know what is right to do, still i cant do it.

'Gerlyn, gerlyn! kailan ka mgbabago? youre giving the person around u a bad impression of yourself. is dat what u want them to think? na youre like that, though youre really not?'.

Ayan n, umarangkada n nman ang aking 'konsensya' (holy spirit, pero para mgets ng lhat, kunwari 'konsensya' n lng.. hehe'.

9:16 - dito n ko sa office...

Conversation on Gerlyn's thought...

Hay.. bkit ba kc gnun? Bkit kc mukha ciang msungit? bkit ba parang ang hirap nyang i-approach? bkit ba hindi man lng cia tumingin? bkit ba, ndi nlng cia ung naunang nmansin? mas higher cia samin sa position, ndi kaya dpat cia ung mauna pumansin kc dpat isipin nya n bka nhihiya kmi? Hay....

Conclusion...

Pero sabi nga... C God, He's bringing u sa isang place or situation, para i-change ka, ndi para i-change un isang tao... Kaya i know, its my fault. dpat pinansin ko cia. And kun ndi man cia mamansin, nsa knya n un. at least i do what i supposed to do.

'Gerlyn! thats ur lesson. hope next time ma-aaply mu mga pinagsasabi mu at mga iniisip mu n dpat at tamang gwin! Ndi lng spat n 'YOU KNOW IT, YOU HAVE TO DO OR APPLY IT!' pasaway ka!'

'Lord, once again, im disappointed with myself. Once again, i did not do what i supposed to do as YOUR child... Help me Lord! Change me! In Jesus name, Amen.'

Para san?????????????

Gusto ko lang i-share un part ng message or preaching ni Pastor Roel last sunday. Until now, eto p din un iniisip ko kya parang hirap p ko mgdecide sa ggwin ko sa work ko (work nga ba to? hehe)..

Deuteronomy 8:18 (NLT) Remember the Lord your God. He is the one who gives you power to be successful, in order to fulfill the COVENANT he confirmed to your ancestors with an oath.

Yan ang promise ni God sa'kin/sa'tin. That God will give me ability to produce wealth! yes! His promise is indeed true. Pero un promise n yan will only be given if we have COVENANT with Him. Sabi ni Pastor Roel, Yes promised ni God n i-bless tau pero we must have a covenant with God. Tos eto un question n ngstruck skin..

'What is my covenant with God?'

'What is God's covenant with me?'

Naisip ko, oo nga noh? hingi ako ng hingi ng blessing kay Lord: sa work, sa family, sa relationship, and stuffs, pero para san?

Sabi ng Lord skin,

Cge, Ill bless you with the best work that youre asking, pero PARA SAN?

Cge, Ill bless you with a good relationship with your family, friends and with people around you, pero PARA SAN?

Cge, Ill give you, wealth, money, pero PARA SAN?

PARA SAN lahat ng ina-ask mu sakin n gusto mung ibgay ko sau?

PARA SAN anak? PARA SAN GERLYN?

Wow! That was really a tough question. Mukhang mdali pero if you would really think of it, mhirap. Aq, personally, nhirapan or npaisip tlga ko dun sa tnung n un e. oo nga noh? para san nga? oo, xempre i have my answer.. xempre, its for my family, to help din or to bless other people, for my own personal growth, career growth... Maybe other or most of the people e npakarami pang mga mbubulaklak n kdahilanan why gusto nilang i-bless cla ni God. But is that really un laman ng heart ntin? un b tlga? o un lng kc un tingin nting dpat isagot pero wala nman tlga cia sa heart ntin? Kaya nga ni-rerebuke pa din ko ni God...

Gerlyn, yan b tlga? At kung yan nga, anu priority mu sa mga yan? Alam mu ba kun panu at para san mu ggmtin un ibbgay ko sau n blessing? Kaya mu bng imanage o ihandle?'

Hay... until now, yan pa din ang question n 'bumabalik-balik' sa utak ko. Pero i believe and i know n mgkakaron yan ng answer... I will first really seek, kun para san lhat ng ina-ask ko kay God, and if ever nga n merong wrong motives sa heart ko n ndi ko pansin or alam,

'LORD change my heart and my mind if ever n may gnun nga. Im allowing YOU Lord n itama un heart ko... Lord help me to be a person ready to receive all your blessings YOU have promised me...'

Ikaw? oo ikaw! Para san lhat ng hinihingi mu kay God? Kaya mu n bng i-handle un if ever?

Ayan, balik RPG na.. hehe...