To Quit or Not to Quit?

Have you ever think of quitting?

Me? Of course I do! A lot of times!This day, dahil sa walang mgawa (alam nman ng lhat to db? khit nsa work, ala p ding mgawa. hehe), ngbasa-basa ko ng kun anu-anu. Mejo mdami-dami din akong stories na nbasa kahapon and today and pinagpo-forward ko sa emails un iba. Pero this story tlga ang ng-struck skin kya nga nilagay ko dito sa blog.

This is the story, hope you would come to realize something to...

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The Fern and the Bamboo

One day I decided to quit. I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality. I wanted to quit my life. I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.

"God", I said. "Can U give me one good reason not to quit?" His answer surprised me.

"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?" "

"Yes", I replied.

"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. In the second year the fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo."

"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit. The same in year four." "Then in the fifth year, a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern, it was seemingly small and insignificant. But just six months later, the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."

"Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots? I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you."

"Don't compare yourself to others." He said. "The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful."

"Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high."

"How high should I rise?" I asked.

"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.

"As high as it can?" I questioned.

"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can.

"I left the forest, realizing that God will never give up on me.

And He will never give up on you.

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Never regret a day in your life. Good days give you happiness; bad days give you experiences; both are essential to life.

Sa life ko, dami times ko na gustong mg-quit. Iba-ibang reasons and iba-ibang aspects of my life...

--> Kay God. Dumating ako sa point I almost quit sa 'relationship ko kay God'. Not because i dont trust and believe in Him but because naisip ko n ndi nman ako tulad 'nila', nung mga tao sa church. See how Satan works in my life, esp. with my mind and emotions? But Im thankful because God gave me someone n ndi ng-give-up skin. (c Diantuts! I wonder what my life would be if she gave up on me!).

--> Sa Friends. I also tried several times to quit on 'relationships', friends specifically (xempre ndi BF, kc wala nman akong igi-give-up jan! haha). As i have said, minds are so deceiving! And when mind deceives you, your emotions will be affected too. Thats my problem when it comes to friendship. Lagi ko cnsabi or pinapafeel sa srili ko na 'I DONT BELONG', 'I AM NOT WORTHY TO THEM', 'THEY'RE NOT LIKE ME', 'THEY DONT LIKE ME', 'I AM NOT IMPORTANT TO THEM', 'THEY CAN LIVE WITHOUT ME, THEY DONT NEED ME'. Yan ang mga speech ng mind ko when it comes to friendship kya nman pti emotions ko affected. That is the reason why several times Ive decided to quit on relationships. But because God is good, aun, now I know that what my mind saying is not true. And isa pa, its unfair to that person if its not really what they want you to feel and still dats what youre feeling, db db?

--> Sa Family. I grew up in a family n ndi gnun ka-open or the communication is not that well practiced. hehe. Khit between sa mga sisters and also sa parents, ndi kmi gnun ka-open. Mrami ding flaws ang fmily ko xempre, just like any other families. Wala nmang perfect family e. Pero I believe that this is the family that what God wants me to have and that I am here in this family because God wants me to do something with this family. I am not saying that my family is worst, but i can say that its not perfect. Got it?

--> Sa Work. Anu ba, kelangan pa bng imemorize yan? I am very open nman kun anu ang status ng work ko now db? Sa mga ndi nkakaalam, pwes alamin nyo na. hehe. There were times na npapatanung ako, 'Bkit cla gnun, bkit cla gnyan?' 'Ba't parang cla blessed, bat ako ndi?' (inggit for short! hehe) Ung mga stupid questions n gnyan.. And reading this makes me realize n ndi ako cla, ako c 'GERLYN'. I am unique. Like what God said about the Bamboo: "Don't compare yourself to others." He said. "The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful." "Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high.". What an assuring promise from God!.

I am GERLYN, I am not them. I have a unique purpose in my life. Again I am holding on to God's plan and promises for my life. Now, maybe Im not seeing what my life's gonna be, but as long as I trust Him, I believe it would be beautiful. A beautiful future awaits me!. So excited!

Now I am sure of my answer to this question, "TO QUIT OR NOT TO QUIT?"

Of course, "NOT TO QUIT!"

Installing Love

Tech Support: Yes, ... how can I help you?

Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've decided to install Love. Can you guide me though the process?

Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?

Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What do I do first?

Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?

Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running?

Tech Support: What programs are running?

Customer: Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now

Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off?

Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error - Program not run on external components ." What should I do?

Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.

Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.

Customer: Okay, done.

Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.

Customer: Thank you, God.

Draw Me Close - Katinas

Draw me close to You
Never let me go
I lay it all down again
To hear You say that I’m Your friend

You are my desire, No one else will do
‘Cause no one else can take Your place
To feel the warmth of Your embrace

Help me find a way, Bring me back to You

You’re all I want
You’re all I’ve ever needed
You’re all I want
Help me know You are near

God wants us to be CLOSER TO HIM...

Der is a call - no, a CRY - coming from the HEART of GOD and with each passing day its intensity increases:

"Why are you SATISFIED WITHOUT MY PRESENCE? Why do u remain distant when u could have INTIMACY WITH ME?"

God is calling us. God wants to give us everything. Though all of us were not worthy of what He's willing to give us, still He's willing to give it to us. That's how He LOVES us. He's willing to SAVE us. He's willing to give us SALVATION. He already paid the penalty of our sins through the CROSS, what we need to do is just ACCEPT Him as our LORD and SAVIOUR.

If you think that you are not worthy of what God was offering, dont worry, no one is worthy to be saved by Him, all of us is not worthy of Him. That is because all of us are sinners. But know what? SINNERS is the reason why Jesus Christ came to this world. He's not after the righteous people. Bible says in Matthew 9:13 '... For I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners."

Aren't you glad that Jesus came for you? for us? We are all sick and we need to be healed. We're all SINNERS and we need Christ in our lives. He's willing to forgive us, just come to Him and repent from your/our sins. Repentance means not just recognizing the wrong in something we have done and be sorry about it, but also turning away from those things. Connect ourselves to God. Draw near to Him and He will draw near to us!

Come near to God and he will come near to you.

James 4:8

Song for my FRIEND/S...

Song lyrics | Umbrella lyrics

Bridging the Gap...

Romans 6:23

For the WAGES of SIN is DEATH, but the GIFT of GOD is ETERNAL LIFE in CHRIST JESUS our LORD.

Before, God and Man were together, but when sin comes into the world, man is separated from God. And because God loves us, He had sent Jesus Christ to die on the cross and through our faith in Him, we can be connected to God again. Jesus Christ serves as a bridge to the gap between God and Man.

Let us first look at the keywords for this Verse.....

• WAGES - payment that we deserve for what we have done.
• SIN - it is something that we do apart/independent from God.
• DEATH - eternal separation from God. (Spiritual death not physical)
• GIFT of GOD - something that is given to us out of God's Love. It is sometimes referred to as GRACE - something that is given to us which we dont deserve.
• ETERNAL LIFE - eternity with God.
• Christ Jesus, our LORD - when we say Lord, it means someone who is SUPERIOR to us. A MASTER, someone POWERFUL, etc...

This verse Romans 6:23 explains to us how can we be saved, how can we have our SALVATION. We are all sinners and as the bible says "For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God." (Romans 3:23). We all did things that displeases God, we all make decisions or actions independent or apart from God. No one can claim that he is an innocent. "If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us." (1 John 1:8). And because we're all sinners, the punishment that we have earned for our sins or the payment for our sins is DEATH. Not just physical, but ETERNAL DEATH!

But because God loves us, God gave us Jesus Christ to die on the cross. Romans 5:8 declares... But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

Another proof of God's love for us is John 3:16... For God so loved the world that he gave his One and only Son,that whoever believes in him
shall not perish but have eternal life.

Jesus Christ died for us! He died to pay the penalty of our sins and to rescue us from eternal death. Salvation, forgiveness of sins, is a free gift from God. None of us deserves it but because of God's grace, we can have it. But since it is a Gift, you cannot say that it is yours unless u have accepted it. And for you to have SALVATION, you have to ACCEPT that you are a sinner and repent from your sins, believe that God will forgive u and accept CHRIST as your Lord and Saviour.

Romans 10:9, "that if you confess with your mouth Jesus as Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved.

Another Day of Boredom? or Realization?

This day is just an ordinary day.. xempre depende yan kun anu ba ibig sbhin ng 'ordinaryo' skin db.. Ordinary, meaning, aun, tulad pa din ng dati. Dito ko sa office, nkaupo, nkaharap sa pc (nka-internet para specific. hehe). Nkikinig ng music sa fon at ng-iisip ng kun anu-anu... At this day, nfeel ko n nman n 'parang walang nangyayari' skin dito sa office n to. Pag kinuwento ko ung sitwasyon nmin sa iba, madaming ngsasabi n 'aus yan ah, wala kaung gngawa pero sumusweldo!'. Uu aus tlga un sa cmula. Pero pag tumagal-tagal na, eto n ung mga times n naiisip mu n its not really the money or its not only the money why ka ngwowork. Super bored n ko dito, dami ko tnung and sumtimes it cums to the point n ndi ko n mlaman kun anu b tlga kinakaayawan ko dito. Kun anu n b tlga ung rison y ayaw ko n dito... ngkahalu-halo na. Dumadating ako sa point n anu b tlga rison?. Ung 'work' ba? Un environment (including the people around me)? un sweldo? o sa sarili ko ako may problema? n ndi ko lubos maisip why kelangan n ganto? Kc kun iisipin nman, if they give us/me a work, tingin ko nman mgagawa ko e. Kya nga nila, kya din nmin db? dami ko reklamo db? actually, dami pa tlga yan, and i dont think n i need to put those things pa here. wat im trying to impose here is dat 'nkakasawa na' and i think i/we deserve better than this.....

At hbng tumatakbo sa utak ko lhat ng mga angal at questions n yan, nbasa ko tong mga to.

Just then a woman who had been subject to bleeding for 12 years came up behind Him and touched the edge of His cloak. She said to herself, "If I only touch His cloak, I will be healed." Jesus turned and saw her. "Take heart, daughter," he said, "your faith has healed you." And the woman was healed from that moment. (Matt. 9:20-22)

--> Bleeding for 12 years!? Imagine that! But still this woman did not loose her faith in God and what does her faith brought her? She is healed...

--> I am in this work for quite so long, one year, 4 months and 4 days to be exact. I have so many concerns bout my work, many negative things to say about this work, but just like the bleeding woman, though i am in 'pain', i will not stop believing that God will bring sumthing good in my life. Ill make sure that I'll learn here what God wants me to learn and if it also He's will n ndi n ko mgcontinue sa company n to, Let His will be done...

Sometimes God really allows some not good things to happen in our lives, not to hurt us but to teach us. He just wants us to know that there is God. That He is there. Mostly kc, It is when we are down dat we remember that there is a God. That we needed His help, that we needed Him to answers our questions... And when I ask this questions, 'Lord, what do you want to do with my life? Why is this happening to me, why is my work like this? And here's His answer.

'I KNOW what I am planning for you. I have GOOD PLANS for you, NOT plans to HURT YOU. I WILL GIVE you HOPE and a GOOD FUTURE.'

1. I KNOW what I am planning for you. --> this just shows and tells us that God knows... He knows what is happening. He knows my condition. He knows my questions, he knows my worries, he knows the circumstances that i am in.... Cguro nga, ndi ntin alam, pero God knows, He is all knowing.

2. I have GOOD PLANS for you, NOT PLANS TO HURT YOU --> Everything that God allows to happen in our lives is with a purpose. Meron taung mga sari-sariling plano sa buhay ntin, we think that it is the best thing for us, the best plan for our lives, right? kun gnyan ang tingin ntin sa mga plano ntin sa buhay ntin, how much more is the plan of God for our lives. We know what we want, but God knows what we need. God is the one who created us and kun meron mang nkakaalam ng lahat tungkol stin, it is our creator. Do not worry, trust God. He knows what He's doing.

3. I WILL GIVE you HOPE and a GOOD FUTURE! --> Be strong, be faithful, God has something for me/you. Nothing is impossible with Him. I am are secured if I/we have God in our lives. Do not worry, God knows my/ure situation and He knows better what to do with it.. I'll/Let'sTrust Him!

Balik ITS...

Im coming home back to the place where i belong... hehe... Balik ITS kmi... Aun, 2mambay lng kmi dun. Nkigulo, ngpictyur pictyur.. hehe... May pa-pizza dw nung araw n un e, pero parang ndi ata nmin nlasahan ni irene... Buti sna kun ndi lng nga nalasahan e, kso ndi kmi nkatikim!!!!!! hehe.. pero aus lng... Mapagbigay nman kmi at mpagparaya. hehe

Mga nkaka-miss sa LIBIS na wala dito sa MAKATI....
1. Ndi n kailangan pang manghiram ng kung anu-anu para lng makapag-cr.(mas ok dun kc wat if d mu ka-close ung paghihiraman mu db? hehe. joke lng.)

2. Maluwag n workstation. Pde kang yumuko, pde kang sumubsob, pde mung i-untog ang sarili mu sa mesa ng ndi tumatama sa keyboard. Pde mung galaw-galawin ang monitor at pc mu ng ndi ngwowori n bka mlaglag.

3. You can move freely. Pde mung igalaw galaw ang lhat ng parte ng ktawan mu at ndi mu iipitin ang kili-kili mu hbng ngtatayp.... hehe. At kung tlgang gusto mung gumalaw ng todo, pde ka png mangapitbahay at pumunta sa mga ka-tsikahan mu n mejo wala din mga gngawa. hehe..

4.Pde kumain hangga't gusto mu. Magpantry maya't maya at pde ding kumain ng kumain sa workstation. Pde ding mkikain sa ibng workstation, pag ngtitipid ka. hehe

5. Extended hours of lunch. 2 hrs of lunch break, san ka pa?!. Minsan extended p yan, kc pagtpos ng 2 hrs ska pa lng mg-toothbrush. hehe. Astig tlga... hehe

6. Good for your health. Ndi msyado lalaki tyan mu dito... kc madaming pdeng pag-galaan pagtpos mglunch. Pag walang budget, mg-window shopping at mglakad-lakad lng... Pag malakas ang trip mu, mgpictyur-pictyur nlng kau sa citiwalk o kya mg-MTV. db gayle? hehe. O di kaya, khit ndi 'break' mglakad-lakad ka pa din sa baba, kso lng sa 19th floor ka dpat sasakay ng elevator, mhirap ng may mkakita. hehe

7. At last but not the least, ndi mhirap sumakay pag uwian compare dito sa makati. May mga kun anu-anu pang foods n pde bilhin hbng ng-aantay ng sasakyan. Anjan ang tokneneng, kikiam, fishbol, at higit sa lhat ang 'chicken balls ni manong' (shiela's term. hehe), Mlau nga lng lalakadin mu pag cubao ang destinasyon mu, pero aus n din...

Eto nman ang mga nkakamiss dito sa MAKATI pag balik LIBIS n kmi...
1. Wala ng libreng kape, milo, creamer at iba pa.

2. Wala ng meryenda (banana cake, brownies at ensaymada) n khit kelan pdeng byaran.

3. Meron akong isang tao n mamimiss. mdalang ko n ciang makakasbay (bka nga ndi na). Sa lunch at mlamang pati sa pag-uwi... haha.

4. Wala n kong pagbibilhan ng 'PEBEO'.. Sa national bookstore glorietta lng ata meron nun.

5. Wala ng unlimited use of internet (though restricted ung ibng sites, ok n din).

6. Mgiging isa nlng ulit card ko, ATM card nlng minus n ung MRT card. hehe

7. Dito mgiging 'pipi' ka. Khit pinanganak kang ngsasalita o mdaldal, mpapraktis mu dito ang pagiging 'pipi'. haha


At eto ang mlupit....
Mga pinagkatulad ng sa LIBIS at sa MAKATI....
1. parehong walang GAWA!!!. Tambay for short!!! hehe

Now let me ask you, "If you were given a chance to choose, where do you prefer to work? Here in MAKATi or in LIBIS?"

Let me hear it from you. Feel free to write in my comment box on the left side of this blog...

'SSS' Day (Sakal, Sakali, Saklolo) Day...

This is the saturday that I've been waiting for....
Nun morning mejo nkakatamad kc nga umuulan and naisip ko, 'nu b yan, dami daming days n pde umulan y ngaun pa?'. hehe... Kala ko ndi n mtutuloy un panonood ko ng 'SSS' e... hehe.. Actually, khit nman bagyuhin pa un, gusto ko p din matuloy, kso db unfair nman kay buddy kun ndi ko kukunin ang side nya, kaya ive texted her... and aun, tuloy nman dw (buti nlng ndi cia tinamad.)

Speaking of 'SSS', nkakatuwa ung movie. gwapo ni ryan ska in fairness, gumanda tlga c judy ann at ang cute ng baby nila, c 'rafa'... Sabi nila mas ok dw ung 'KKK' pero malay ko kun anu mas ok, di ko nman npanood ung 'KKK' e.. hehe... Aun...

Pero obviously, im not writing this blog ng dahil sa 'SSS' tlga... hehe...

Wala kc kming photographer kya puro cia ang nsa pic. yoko ng ako ang solo e. hehe.

Eto tlga gusto ko ilgay....
This day, mejo ngwori ako e... Kc naisip ko n bka 'nbobore' c buddy n ako ksama niya. Though nsa isip ko lng nman un, pero still nkakapagwori pa din. hehe. Pero I think ndi nman (ndi nman halata sa pics nya e. hehe). I hope n ndi nman (db buddy?). hehe... Pero xempre ako, ndi ako nbobore sa knya... hehe... Pero sa kabuuan, it turned out ok nman and this day is one of the days to be treasured forever...

Etong picture n to nkakatuwa. before pa mshot e kun anu-anu pa pnaggagawa ata nung 'manong'. hehe... Aun... mejo mlabo, pero aus n din yan. hehe..

This video was unintentionally taken by 'manong' @ trinoma. haha... mgpapapicture lng sna kmi e kso kun anu-anu pinipindot nung 'manong'. hehe.. pero oks lng din, maganda nman e, kso sna cnbi nya para mejo nkagalaw kmi db? hehe...

PS...
Pero meron ako nmiss nung araw n to... how i wish ksama nmin cia... c virnatuts!!! I miss u... haha. lgi ko tong ksama pero lgi kong nmimiss. hehe...

things dat ive learned and realized...

--> if the person is really important sau, khit gnu ka pa ktgal mghintay, aus lng... ure willing do to dat. minsan maiisip mu n kelangan ba tlga n gwin un, pero still u wud end up to the decision na 'I will do that because I want to do that' not 'i will do that because I have to do that'.

--> Past is past. Do not live in the past. Today is here and Tomorrow is waiting for us. Do not stick sa past. Dat's already finished. Lhat ng ngawa mu sa past mu, di n un mbabalik e. In any kind of relationships, di maiiwasan n may mga misunderstandings, may mga feelings n nhurt, may mga ncause n negative emotions, pero lhat ng un tpos na... Iwan n lhat yan... Mhirap mg-forward if mdami kang dalang mbbgat n bgay sa life mu. Its not the time n din n mgturuan o mgcchan kun kninong fault kc it wont help...

--> Learn to accept the weaknesses of the people around you. - Once you got to know the person, especially hbng tumtgal ng tumtgal, mkikita at mkikita mu tlga ung mga weaknesses nya. and as a friend, u need to learn to accept those weaknesses. ndi mu pdeng takbuhan nlng un or deadmahin.. Wat u need to do is to accept it and for you to do that, ask God that He'll change you and make u accept the weaknesses of the people around you and that He'll use you to help that person work-out his/her weaknesses. Kc if youre looking for a perfect friend, ndi ka mkakakita nun becoz nobody's perfect! u urself is not perfect! Wat we need is change or heart and minds.

--> Always have time for your friends (khit minsan lng) - Not Everyday, kyang ipaalam ng mga important n tao sa life mu un kun anu nanyayari sa life nya.. Oo, hi-tech n ngaun. May text, may email, may friendster at kung may anu anu pa, pero sumtimes dhil sa dami ng gngawa sa work or kun khit san pa, nkakalimutan n lhat un. at kun nkakapagtext pa nga or email, still minsan kulang pa din un details e and mas mgnda n mkita mu tlga kun anu ung lgay nya, un anu n ba nangyayari sa knya and mkita mismu ng mata mu kun kmusta b tlga cia, anung bgo sa knya (anung luma?.hehe), in person... Especially dun sa mga tao n pdeng pde nmang mgkita...

--> Friendship (Any relationship) is a two way relationship.. - before i always thought n dpat anjan ako lgi kc kelangan nya ko. Bka kailangan nya ng kausap, bka kailangan nya ng 'clown', bka kailangan nya ng gnun, ng gnyan, without me realizing n kya ko pla pinag-iisip ung mga un is because I need her din.. Its not only, 'She needs me or She needs a friend' but also 'I need her or I need a friend.'

--> Leave everything to God.. -- Nun mejo fresh pa 'misunderstanding' nmin ni Anna.. sobra grbe, i dont want to let her go tlga... anjan n ung mga times n kulang nlng sabihin nya tlga n i-stop ko na. pero ndi nman nya cnbi e, mejo pinaparamdam lng nya. hehe. pero still parang i cant stop e. cguro nguguilty lng ako kc i am the reason y nging gnun kmi... pero one time, meron akong nkausap bout this, and sabi nya sakin 'Learn to respect her decision'. Ng-violent reaction pa ko dito, sbi ko, 'Did u mean n hayaan ko nlng cia n mwala?'. tos sabi nya, ndi s gnun pero lhat ng bagay e may time. cge dw wag dw akong tumigil and 1 day i will realize nlng n wala n tlga cia. and isa pang cnbi nya is 'Kpag ang boat cnagwan mu sa isang side lng, mgpapaikot ikot lng dw un at walang mangyayari.'. and i guess lhat ng cnbi nyang un is tama... And isa pang cnbi nya, mas mganda dw if ang center ng relationship is c God... Kya I prayed and ask God n if He really wants me and Anna to be friends again, then un n nga sna ung mangyari and if ever n ndi, then I ask Him n He'll help me accept it. And now, Anna and I were friends again and I guess God wants us to be a part of each others lives. hehe... Old friendship with a new start and I believe that God will bless our friendship. O wag ka na kumontra dontcha... hehe

The 'Much Awaited 'Date''

January 8 na pero mukhang may hang-over p ko nung jan 5 kya i am writing this now. hehe...

Have u ever experience n bgyan ng gift tos nkta mu kun panu pinili at ibinalot at ikaw pa ang ngdala, pero without you knowing n dat gift is for you? Well, maybe now u have an idea why I seem to be so happy... its because of the gift!!!... nope, just kidding... Its not all about the gift...

want to know the story?

Jan 5, eto un day n 'mixed emotions' ako. happy and excited, kc i am going to meet a long lost friend (joke lng), though nkasama ko n cia before pa nitong date n to, pero nun jan 5 lng ung day n kmi lng ulit dalawa. aside sa happiness, andun din ung wori (kc meron kming mga d pagkakaintindhan before), worry n bka tuluyan n ngang ng-iba. Tos i-add mu pa n akala ko ndi n mtutuloy, kc mejo late cia e, mejo lng nman. hehe. pero for whatever rison, buti ndi cia pumayag nun cnbi ko n wag n muna kmi mgkita, nxt tym nlng... aun, ive waited again, and at last dumating cia...

Then finally mgkasama n kmi, at first mejo may 'ilang' factor kc nga dhil sa mdaming risons... pero aun, xempre na-overcum nman yun... manonood sna kmi ng cne pero since 'maaga' cia dumating, di n ntuloy and khit n pinipilit nya ko, ndi tlga ko ngpapilit kc PBB Big Night nun e at may pasok p cia kinabukasan. from trinoma ngpunta kmi ng sm north dhil may bibilhin dw cia s blue magic... nung time n un,mejo i feel bad (onti lng nman). know why? e kc nman parang feeling ko aun lng ndi ko p cia mtulungan... She's asking me kc kun anu dw pdeng ipanregalo and ipili or tulungan ko dw cia pumili... 2 times kming bumalik ng place n un (kc ng-cr cia) and still gnun p din ang eksena, sbi ko pa, ndi nman kc ko mhilig sa mga gnun (stuff toys) and sna ndi nkaapekto un cnbi kong un sa knya sa mga susunod n mangyayari. And she's asking me pa kun anu dw bng color mganda. sabi ko, 'Anu bng kulay paborito/gusto nya?'. 'Un nga e, ndi ko alam!', sgot nya. at sabi ko ulit 'Nu b yan, friend mu tos ndi mu alam?' hehe (later ko nlng napagtanto y ndi nya alam. hehe). at sa wakas nkapili din pero b4 mkapagbayd, isa p ulit n 'pilian', anung kulay dw ng paper bag.. e since white ung binili nya, sbi ko white nlng, para terno.. wyl walking, sabi ko ako nlng mgdala kc nman bka nbibigatan cia kc nmn ang laki laki nung dala nya (mlaki pa sa knya!). hehe. joke lng... At xempre bngay nman nya ng ndi man lng ngpapilit pa... hehe.. Astig!!

After Blue Magic we decided to eat and we went to 'Teriyaki Boy' (The Block). That was my first time n kumain dun. Nun una ngwori ko. Wori in a sense n nku pnu b un, bka mgmukha kong tanga, bka mhalatang ndi ako sosyal, ung mga gnun? hehe. pero lhat ng yan na-overcum ko and nwala din ung wori. know y? kc i know im wid the person n lam kong khit n mgmukha pa kong 'eng-eng' ndi ako iiwan and ndi ako ikakahiya n ksama. She really make me feel comfortable that day. Kwento cia ng kwento. cguro kc alam nya n ndi ako mkuwento kya she's always starting or making the conversation, para ndi mstop... hehe... And sa pgkukuwento nya, nfeel ko n andami ko pa pla ndi alam s knya... and im hapi na kinukwento nya skin mga happenings sa life nya.

C 'Buddy'

At dun din sa 'Teriyaki Boy' nya skin cnbi na sakin dw ung gift n bnili nya sa blue magic... Una ayaw ko maniwala kc bka ginogoyo ako db? So tlgang sinure ko pa... And aun, gift nga dw nya skin un... Gulat ako tlga... kc i never expected nman ung gnun klaseng gift, kaadikan db? di ko n nga binuksan kc bka msurprise ako.. though lately mejo nrealize ko n sna binuksan ko un nung mga time n un kc i know mas gusto din nya cguro un... Kso di ko n nbuksan e. hehe...

Pictyur pictyur!!! Smile Dontcha.. hehe

After nmin sa sa teriyaki boy, ewan kun gnu kmi ktgal dun, pero mukhang mtgal kc nkapagpictyur pictyur p kmi e...., inaya ko n cia n umalis... And since mdami nang kinatatakutan ngaun c dontcha (taxi and jip to name a few), ngpasundo cia sa 'papa' nya. After mga 15 minutes n pghihintay, dumating n sundo nya and hinatid n din nila ko. aun...

i really dont know what will happen next sa friendship nmin, but i believe that this is really a new start for us... We'll be 'dating' again sa Saturday and looking forward for that day...

Big Ear Stuffed Toy - kya dw nya bngay skin ung stuff toy kc she knows n she's not always there or beside me dw, so she gave me sumthing n pde ko mkasama... And aside dun, pinili nya tlga ung 'huggable' ska un malaki un tenga... Para always ready to listen. so sweet.. hehe.. This is also y mejo npaisip ako kun naapektuhan b cia nun cnbi ko n di ko mhilig sa mga gnun.. hehe... Im so hapi, not just because of the gift but because of the renewed friendship and xempre parang 'sign' n din ung gift n un... Super hapi din aq kc pdeng yakapin un gift n un (gusto ko tlga un eversince, pero ang nsa isip ko lgn nun n pdeng yakapin is unan.hehe). And 1 thing more, 'Buddy' name ng stuff toy n to... 'Buddy', how i miss that word.. hehe..

Thanks "DONTCHA", "ANNA", "EYNNA", "ADIK".

Thanks BUDDY!!!